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Nov. 16th, 2018 @ 12:01 am wow
scary stuff
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Feb. 21st, 2010 @ 04:23 pm ''
I'm coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she's touching his-chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, letting me go

And I just can't look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
'Cause I'm Mr Brightside

I'm coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she's touching his-chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, letting me go

Cause I just can't look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
'Cause I'm Mr Brightside

I never...
I never...
I never...
I never...
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Aug. 2nd, 2009 @ 01:33 pm ... 4... 3...
(we must begin)
I had nothing to say and I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And i let it all out to find that i'm not the only person with these things in mind
(inside of me)
but all the vacancy the words revealed is the only real thing that i've got left to feel
(nothing to lose)
nothing to gain, how i went alone. and the fault is my own and the fault is my own

i wanna heal
i wanna feel
what i thought was never real
i wanna let go of the pain i felt so long
(erase all the pain till it's gone)

i wanna heal
i wanna feel
like i got close to something real
i wanna find something i wanted all along
somewhere i belong

and i've got nothing to say. i can't believe i didn't fall right down on face
(i was confused)
looking everywhere only to find that it's not the way i had imagined it all in my mind
(inside of me)
but do i have the negativity. cause i can't justify the way everyone is looking at me
(nothing to lose)
just STUCK, how i went alone, and the fault is my own and the fault is my own

i wanna heal
i wanna feel
what i thought was never real
i wanna let go of the pain i felt so long
(erase all the pain till it's gone)

i wanna heal
i wanna feel
like i got close to something real
i wanna find something i wanted all along
somwehere i belong

and i will never know myself until i do this on my own
and i will never feel anything else until my wounds are healed
i will never be anything till i break away from me
i will break away
i'll find myself today
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Aug. 1st, 2009 @ 03:40 am (no subject)
i get so pissed off sometimes


also staples doesn't want me. life as a bum goes on.
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Jul. 31st, 2009 @ 11:39 am well
I think that was one of the most bizarrely awkward dreams i've ever had.
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Jul. 23rd, 2009 @ 04:07 am so according to crazy old men on conservative talk radio at 330 in the morning
if you take your own bags to a grocery store you hate retarded people are are a "liberal, with, you know, dreadlocks and all.... you know what I mean".

Also, if you eat cheese, it's your fault the sewage system sucks.
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Jul. 12th, 2009 @ 12:42 pm dream
I got a job at a call center that was mostly kids my age. It was for an ISP and everyone was pretty chill. I think MItch worked there but he was the only person I recognized. Everyone else was someone I hadn't met before. They walked me through the basics and I got to meet people. Damn, I wish that was reality.

Then part of it turned into a zombie dream which is cool I guess. We were hiding underground in an abandoned building and we managed to go the whole dream without anyone dying.

I can't remember of this was part of the same dream or not (I think it was, and we had gone on to the roof during break), but I also had a dream I was piloting Gurren Lagann with someone high up in the sky, and we saw the Arc-Gurren up in the sky. Prety cool I guess.
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Jul. 10th, 2009 @ 02:05 am had family counseling today
I think I feel a bit better about things, and I'm a little more motivated about life now. I just need to find a job and get out of debt and everything will be good again.

I do love my parents (all three of them), but I definitely don't tell or show them that very often. I'm pretty emotionally retarded though so this is nothing new



also I had blood in my poop tonite. I'm pretty scared about that and want to get it checked out, but I don't have health insurance so I really can't. I guess I'll just be praying.
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Jul. 9th, 2009 @ 02:03 pm shine on forever; shine on benevolent son
I have beaten the universe again. My stepdad had a laptop with a busted HDD that we forgot about. I found it today and sure enough it takes SATA. So I'm back in action, with an UPGRADE! w00t dual core processor. Now I just need to find out if I can stick my RAM in here...
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Jul. 6th, 2009 @ 04:16 am this is the most unique depiction of satan I have ever seen


all down the right side.
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